what's your definition of love?

love? admiration? affection? adoration? what's your definition of each of them?

I'm sure they all vary. Perhaps the emotional side of you may be the same, but they are totally different..

There was no class today, so I made a wasted trip to school when the next "lesson" starts at 1, and only requires 5 minutes of my time.. Oh wells.. This is school.. Although there was no class, I engaged in a conversation which I deem meaningful and memorable. Never in my life will I imagine myself to open up to others that confidently. The friend I talked to was alone today as her friend did not come to school. We talked about our lives, our feelings, our countries over a cup of drink, followed by lunch, and continued on when we were in the computer lab. I feel fortunate to be in this school. I have learnt so much from the different people I meet in school, which you can't get it anywhere else. Despite learning about China through China Studies in English in PJC, here is where I apply and widen my horizons. Furthermore, I learnt more about how a foreigner lives in Singapore. The different arrangements that he or she has to have prepared, the lodging issue and even the student pass issue. Being a Singaporean, I realized I have missed out many other things in life, such as how to be independent, how to think out of the box and survive on your own.

The lifestyles between Singaporeans and the Chinese are totally different. I am not able to treat my new friends like how I treat my old friends. There is a line that falls in between. Not that I hate it, but it is a different experience which i appreciate. I was asked the same question twice today. ''Why are you here?" My answer was still the same. " I myself am not sure." But this time, there was an elaboration. Despite my confusion, I have learnt a lot from many people. In these 5 weeks of school, I have also learnt how to prevent some situations and many others.

In the evening, my friends and I went over to QMU for the Toastmasters' Installation between Henderson Halks and Balestier Eagles. A truly satisfying experience and I am officially a CHARTERED TOASTMASTER!!(: I received a well-learnt lesson from Karen. She is studying at the same school with her younger brother(difference of 14 months). Many a times, i would expect elder sisters to leave their younger brother alone. But she was extremely caring towards him. I asked," 你很疼你的弟弟把？“ She simply nodded and replied," 对啊，他是独家子！ 一定要照顾他。" She also said," 女人一家出去就不是这个家的了。“ After hearing this, I felt so touched. She is such a great sister and I am full of admiration. We talked about my family too. She could see that I was the oldest in the family and she could sense maturity in me. So she asked," 你一定很照顾你的妹妹吧。 你好成熟！" I was stunned for a moment. Mature? Me? I was totally speechless. Not because I thought I wasn't mature, but I have failed in my part. Although I am the oldest in the family, I have failed to take care of them properly like how an older sister should. Comparing both Karen and I, she really deserves my admiration. When she saw her brother up the stage, you could see such pride in her eyes. As she thought her brother and his girlfriend was accepted in UWIC, she exclaimed," 我的妈妈一定会很高兴！“ Such selfless pride made me so guilty! Not that I am jealous of my sisters, but i felt really touched. Their brother-sister relationship is totally commendable!

Recently, I have also heard a lot about friendships. Friendship is really fragile if there exists a lot of doubts. For example, Girl A has this really good friend, Girl B in school. She thinks that Girl B will forever be her friend and her partner in school. As the weeks go by, Girl B who is a more outgoing person starts to make more friends. Given her outgoing personality, Girl A should understand and try to mingle around or stay aside. But, there is no need to feel insecure or angry. Perhaps you may feel a little out of place as you think that you are lacking in some places such that you think you can't fit in. But it is not necessary to doubt. This not only puts your friend off, but it also pressures her so much that she may actually think twice about the friendship. Cases like this are inevitable. However, people should all seek a common ground of understanding and seek alternatives.

I am placed in a very awkward position such that I have friends, but they have greater connections. If you want to talk to this person alone, they may have other friends to attend to, or their close friend requires them more. I can understand as people of the same country depend on each other more, so i should feel less insecure. Take tonight for example, I can put up a brave front, but deep inside, there's this cowardly little figure that can't wait for miracles and fun to happen. In this world of mine, there is no such thing as ' YOU ARE MINE'. Everything's about sharing. Every little incident allows me to prevent more from happening. I can't be the person who depends on others too much. It's time to be independent. Friends are friends, but they are not if they leave you to fend for yourself during a tough situation.

Besides family and friends, one will also need a partner in your life. True enough, TIME IS OF THE ESSENCE. But here I am, talking about your ideal partner. Some may feel that the more people you get together with, the stronger you are, There are some instances where the wrong decision makes you wanna go for more, while the other kind makes you wanna avoid as much as possible. Guys may appear desperate in some cases, changing their ideal partners from time to time. Or just changing for the sake of having fun. Hmmmm, in my opinion, similarities and fate count. Just wait and see...

It's FRIDAY! Another week has gone by at a glance. There's gonna be a long weekend and I hope to make full use of it! (: Studying, spending time with my family and many more! Life's too short and the time left with my sisters do not seem much in the years to come. I will treasure them and hope to reach Karen's expectations towards me.

It's been a long post tonight. Time to sleep and I will wake up to a brand new day tmr.

Te Amo. <3